random stuff

as the night casts its spell on me
and my consciousness slowly drifts away...
that serene look upon your face is the last thing i see...
i can't help but smile knowing how lucky i am to be with you
and that I'll wake up in the morning and all of these will still be true...

i love you.... and i wish i could start and end my everyday with you

pain in the ass

i'm usually a very nice and calm person... but i can also be the meanest most bad ass guy you'll ever meet... if i want to... it's starting to get frustrating... sarap manakit ng tao.. buti na lang mabait ako. amf

madman.... madly in love man....

How can i be so happy and scared at the same time? Damn it! LOVE... Love love love.... So pure yet so evil... Hahaha! It's driving me nuts... It's crazy... I'm crazy... damn it.... Lol.

Can't say that i hate this feeling... I mean i'm damn happy for crying out loud.... I've never been this happy... I guess that's why it scares me... Being in this euphoric state... Feeling like i can do anything.. like i can finally have everything i ever wanted... It feels damn nice... Im high on happy pills!

but.... Here comes the "but"... Sorry.. Force of habit... I know i should stop worrying.. But i can't help it... This is me... As much as i want to suppress that damn negative side... It is still here to haunt my new found happiness... I cant help but think about whether this "happiness high" would eventually end... And it scares me...

it's already a bit complicated as it is.. okay, maybe not really complicated... i mean i do understand the situation that i am in.. i guess i'm looking at it at another perspective or at least im trying to understand why people see it as complicated... It's is quite simple actually... I am in love.. And i'm being loved... easy, right? i should really stop being so mental... Hehe. Damn it... I'm babbling... i don't even know if im making sense.. maybe i am... It's just that i'm not exactly writing all the details.. that's why it seems like im just rambling... Haha.

Man.. This is insane... Where art thou my dear sanity... insanity is taking over me... Hahaha.

I really am just babbling, aren't i? I'm typing this while im waiting for my special someone... This is why i should never be alone.. I become this crazy guy that thinks about everything. Haha. See... im crazy.. Im having a damn conversation with myself in my head. Lol.

Crap... Babbling... I should stop now... Haha

Anyway, back to my point... What was i writing about again? Oh... Happy and scared at the same time...

Ok.. Im happy (duh.. Obviously)...
i guess i'm scared that it might end... I'm already head over heels in love and i'm scared that i would end up screwing things.. I can be a total screw up sometimes... An idiot... A fool... Im trying to be better.. Would that be enough to make this last??? I don't know.. I mean who knows... But i hope it lasts... I want it to last... I'll make it last...

I should stop now... I'm rambling in my head again...

hayyyy.. hello my dear blog... And to all my imaginary readers... til next time ^_^

if a picture is worth a thousand words...

if a picture is worth a thousand words... then what about an album??? you do the math... hahaha. This was supposed to be a valentines day gift.. but i wasn't able to give it... oh well... what else can i do... sayang naman kung walang makakakita... enjoy the pictures... at least may ibang mag aapreciate ng ginawa ko.. (sapul! haha! peace!) I'm not angry... and definitely not bitter... wala akong pinapatamaan.. i just want people to see the way i show my affection to whoever i'm in love with... (naks! amf!) nga pala... matagal tagal na rin tong mga pics na to.. haha

the gift that never had the chance to be... heheh

*oh!!! this is best viewed in most browsers except internet explorer. hehe. i tried fixing it to make it look good on ie.. it just wont work... hehe


the STORY:

designed and printed the stickers.... then drove from laguna to Mall of Asia to cavite.. posted stickers along the way and took pictures of it... from MOA i had some help from a friend (wooo! go Mervin! salamat nga pala!).. had the pictures printed, placed it in a small box and wrapped it with a ribbon.. too bad we weren't able to meet during Vday...

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i miss the way you look at me when we're driving... and I miss that single moment you look at me and you begin to smile… I miss the times we meet and the fact that you're never late…... i miss that you always ask me what i want like I'm always gonna get it... i miss the way you say "mwuahh!" that I get through chat and text… i miss the way you squeeze my hand everytime you're holding it...  i miss the way you hug me like you dont want to let go... i miss the way you call me tart, oh how I miss it so… i miss the way you kiss me and the way i feel when im with you…

but what I miss the most… the greatest thing I miss most about you…


I really miss the way you used to miss me too…



will you marry me?... i guess not....

i didn't want to make you feel like you needed to buy me a gift.. that's why i made you one... seeing you smile would've been enough for me...

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ok ba yung background song?? pinalitan ko pa yan para bagay sa latest post.. haha... oh... btw... im over it.. di po ako nagddrama... hahaha. naka move on na nga.. :) hopefully someone else would make me happy... and i'll try to be even better than what you can see in this post.. i'll make that person happy in every way i can.. hehe

gusto ko lang talagang ipost yung pics... sayang naman talaga diba?

now... don't you wish you have someone as romantic as i am? hehe!

hmmmm.. next time i do something like this, i need to kick it up a notch. hehe.

*oh!!! this is best viewed in most browsers except internet explorer. hehe. i tried fixing it to make it look good on ie.. it just wont work... hehe

hearts in bloom

i opened my eyes to a wonderful day

spring time comes and the sadness fades away

smiles everywhere, it's a joyful celebration.

So i stepped out of my world with no hesitation.

i was walking past a field of flowers in bloom.

it was like i opened a door to one of heaven's room

oh, what a sight to see! all colors from red, yellow and blue

but nothing compares to the moment i saw you

Sitting by the sea of wonderful creations

your exquisite beauty captured my attention

Time has stopped and my heart started racing

And in my head, i could hear a choir of angels singing

Genuine happiness exudes from your presence alone

and your face can light up a room out on your own

your smile is enough to melt my heart away

This is turning out to be one memorable day

Even with everyone around you, you stand out in the crowd

My head keeps spinning. It's screaming out loud

what should i do? oh heavens please give me a sign.

I am hoping that someday i can make you mine.

but alas, i can only admire you from afar.

i can't seem to move, my mind and body is at war

I'm building up the courage, I've never been this intimidated

Because I'm scared these feelings won't be reciprocated.

Soon the colors will fade and the flowers will wither

but memories will remain and your face i will remember

now every time spring comes and all the flowers bloom,

all i can think of and all i see is you...

Author's note:

- this entry started out as something about the flowers in spring time... and maybe a little bit about love. but it ended more bout love than flowers. I wrote it in parts for about 3 days so the initial ideas were gone by the third day, that's why it turned out to be more about love and all.

-the flower is called "bleeding heart" (oh the irony.. hehe) (aka Dicentra Spectabilis).

-it would be awesome to grow that flower here.
 
-edited most of the lines before i posted this. had to tone down the "cheeeesy-ness" (i know it's not a real word, but for my lack of a better term, lets stick with it.) I mean, i don't have anything against getting a little too mushy or whatever you call it, i'm just trying to avoid any comments like "ang corny mo!" hahahahah

Hitting rock bottom.

March 7, 2011:

[Sigh.....]

So I've been having one of the lowest point in my 23 years of existence. You know... when everything seems so fucked up. Almost everything is at a loss. Nothing seems to be going right.... career... love... life...


Man... Life clearly has a sick and twisted sense of humor... and I'm not laughing...

Why is this happening to me? karma? Fuck it! I don't deserve this shit. I've done some cruel things but I definitely had may fairly charitable moments towards others.


Okay... Maybe I'm just angry at the moment.... angry with life... The fact is, I don't have any one to blame... No one.. except me... Lol. Shit happens... And apparently, it happens wayyyyyyyyy more than "a lot" to me. I hate it, but i have to deal with it. I need to get my life back on track.


Gonna apply for a new job soon. Hopefully within a week or so. I need to act like the overly-confident pompous ass that i used to play so i can get a decent job. And yes, it works. Based on experience, pretending like you're a pro at what you're applying for definitely helps.

So there... I've hit rock bottom.... but i don't plan to stay in this rut for long.

It's funny how i found a little bit of comfort in eating FISHBALL. yep! fishballs! It may seem so dull and underwhelming to find comfort in a street food. but i did. It made me smile.

I remember when i was just a little boy... It was already great for me if i get to eat fishballs for the day. Dadaan si manong magtutulak ng fishball at hihingi ako ng pera sa nanay ko para lang makabili ng fishball. Kailangan ko pang magpacute nun para lang pumayag na kumain ako ng fishball. Ok na yung limang piso tapos sobrang swerte na kung sampung piso ibibigay. SOLB!!!! haha!

We all took simple pleasures in life for granted when we were young. I just now realized that i would eventually find comfort in it now that i'm an adult. Nakakatawa din namang isipin na buti pa ang fishball, singkwenta sentimos pa rin ang isa at mabubusog ka na sa halagang limang piso. Buti pa ang FISHBALL! ^_^

Anyway... Asan na ba ko??? ayun... Rock bottom.. Basta... I'll eventually get my life on track.. soon! pero for now... Kuyang fishball!! asan ka na? pabili ako ng limang pisong fishball tapos paluto na rin ng kikiam! gusto ko tustado! hahahaha



UPDATE!!!!!:

I'm almost done with one of my websites... few more days and i can already pass my resume. Magtuturo na naman po akoOOOOoo!!! hehehe

And i'm happier now. less stressed... less complicated. nakakatulog na ulet ako ng ayos. wala ng gumugulo sa utak ko. wala ng gaanong problemang iniisip. hindi ko na kasi sya kailangan isipin. ayun yun e! wahahaha. peace! bati naman tayo e. ^_^

oh yea.. took down some of my entries. lol. di na kelangan.. di rin naman ata nya nabasa e. haha. i don't mind though... marami naman nagsabi sakin na ang sweet ko naman daw. lol. pampalubag loob na rin. whaahha. amf. sayang naman yung regalo ko. hahaha

here's the face of someone who just hit rock bottom:

it would be exhausting to list all the things that could possible go wrong and so easy to lose sight of the places where you got it right. all you could do was deal with stuff as it arise and hope things wouldn't get any worse

A Question of Love

Note: so i usually write my blog in english. Pero tong entry na to, may halong tagalog... wala lang...  feel ko lang pong magtagalog... gusto ko lang.. parang bagay sa mood. Kung may reklamo ka, punta ka sa barangay. Mag file ka dun ng complaint. Pero basahin mo muna to. Kung gusto mo lang naman. Pero kung ayaw mo, di wag. Hehe =P

it's the month of february. tis the season of love.  Wala lang.. gusto ko lang sabihin. Angal ka? hehe

ok.... so im just gonna babble from here on.. hehe

You know how weird it is, when we find that “special person”.... that one person who we really really like, if not love....  the “ONE”... Yun tipong sasabihin natin... “Sya na nga...” (feel na feel mo pagsabi nun.. may halong ooooomph! Hehe)...... we start questioning ourselves... We start doubting ourselves...  napaparanoid tayo.... di ba? Diba? Di baaaaaaaaaaa? (ang kulet ko ngayong gabi.. hehe)

I dont about know you, pero ako... ganun akong tao... ang daming pumapasok sa utak kong mga tanong..  I start thinking negative. I start doubting myself. Lol. Mr.Negativity nga daw sabi ng kaibigan ko...

Some people get rid of those feelings.. some dont...  Lucky are those who easily can... too bad for those who can’t... Minsan kasi kahit anong gawin natin, talagang di mawala sa isip natin yung pakiramdam na yun....

I was actually in that state a couple of weeks ago.... i was asking myself some questions which bugged me like hell. oh,and was i depressed.... hehe... i had a hard time doing anyting.... i was stuck for several days.. i spent my time in my room.. just thinking....

-          Do i deserve to be with this person?

-          Mahal nya ba talaga ako?

-          Am i worthy to be with this amazing person? (talagang amazing e!)

-          Can i make that person happy?

So i was asking myself this questions... and i usually end up getting myself on a deeper shithole... more depressed... kasi laging negative ang naiisip ko...

But then i realized, I'm asking myself the wrong questions.... I shouldn't be asking this to myself.. i mean, how the hell would i know the answers... ako ba sya? dapat sa kanya ko to tinatanong...

And then i thought, pano kung iniisip nya rin tong mga tanong na to.... Nagddoubt na rin kaya sya??? Pano na un?

So i kinda alter those questions (a bit....).

-          Does that person deserve to be with me?   (YES)

-          Mahal ko ba sya?    (OO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sobra)

-          Does that person worthy of being with me?  (Hell yea!!)

-          Can that person make me happy?    (Definitely) 

Kantahan pa kita... makita lang kitang may ngiti sa mata, makita lang kita ako ay ok na. Makita lang kita ako’y sumasaya basta kausap kita basta’t kasama kita.... (lol. Mcdo pala un.)

Wahhhh! Ang kulet ko na naman.. back to my point...... may point nga ba ako???

Ok.. so i was too busy with all the paranoia, nakalimutan ko na hindi ko dapat to tinatanong sa sarili ko.. sya lang naman makakasagot nun e.. bakit kaya di ko natanong sa kanya yun? Siguro kasi nahihiya ako... siguro kasi natatakot ako na baka negative yung kalabasan... natatakot ako...

waaaaaahhhhhh!!... nakakabaliw ...

At least ngayon alam ko na kung ano kelangan kong gawin... Kelangan kong malaman kung ano nasa isip nya.. kung ano nasa puso nya.. (corny ba? So? Ano naman? Inggit ka lang! bwahahah)

So now, those questions still linger in my head... i still have my doubts... but somehow, na-lessen yung burden ko...

Siguro mawawala lang yung mga yun kapag nalaman ko na kung ano talaga nararamdaman nya... kung ano naiisip nya...

Hindi naman ako nagmamadali.. kaya ko pa naman magtiis.. mahirap, oo... pero hanggat kaya ko, gagawin ko... ganun akong tao e... pag nagmahal, lahat ng kaya ko ibibigay ko...

A lot of first time happened to me last month.. things i never thought i’ll feel...  made me realize how important this person is to me.... papakasalan ko na nga e... hehe  

I hate being this vulnerable... but this time i can’t help it...

it is indeed a question of love.... ang tanong... mahal ka ba nya?

cafs, nics, and a whole lot of unnecessary thoughts

The sadness of being alone... You try to make it through the day without feeling sad and lonely. You try to keep yourself busy to avoid the thoughts you've been trying so hard to suppress. But alas, boredom strikes and your mind is left to wander through uncertainties and insecurities. You start to feel like there's no more hope. Emotions starts rushing through your consciousness and you cant stop it. You're ALONE.

You keep telling yourself it's going to be fine. that happiness is right around the corner. That you're loved and you will always be loved. But why does it feel like you're not? Why does it feel like you were left out? Like you're not connected to the world... As if you're stuck in an alternate reality where you're caged in your own misery. You've fallen into a pit of despair and you're wondering if you'll ever get out. You're LOST.

alone and in despair, you try to comfort yourself. You think of all the good things. You recall happy moments. The times when you're glad and carefree. Reminiscing the hugs, the kisses.. All the intimate moments... Those sweet words you've always long to hear.... The passion of that hard sweet kiss.. the times when your mind is racing and your heart beats uncontrollably... But the loneliness strikes you hard. You start questioning things... Where is it now? You validate yourself.. Are you good enough? you think all is lost. You're PARANOID.

Now you're left with yourself. Alone. Miserable. Lonely. you think about that person whom you want so bad but you don't know if they feel the same way. you think about them the whole day. you feel pathetic. You become needy as much as you don't want to. You want to be by their side... But you cant. Now you're stuck in one place and you don't know what to do. You miss them... You long for them... You're HOPELESS.

tears suddenly starts flowing. You want to stop but you cant. You feel pathetic for crying with no reason. You tell yourself be strong. It's not like you. You shouldn't. then you start to laugh. You find it funny that you're crying for something you should be happy for. It's still there. Even though you're not sure. Even though you don't have it everyday. It's there. You realize... You're IN LOVE. You've fallen so hard that you're afraid of losing it.

That's how it is. Accept it. Face it. You don't give up because you feel sad. You shouldn't say goodbye because you're alone for the moment. There are limits to what you can do. there are limits to what they can do. You can only let go when someone says so. You'll move on even if it's hard. Even if it seems impossible. because you love them. And you don't want to force them to love you back. enjoy the moment. Hope for a better tomorrow but prepare yourself for the worst.

MASKARA

Saan ako ppunta?

Saan lulugar?

Saan ako magtatago?

Paano maglalaho?

Lahat sila'y nagmamaliit. 

Paraan ko'y nilalait.

Kada kilos, kada galaw

Lahat pinakikialamanan.

Palayain nyo ako 

sa mundong mapanloko

Wala na akong kilala dito

Lahat kayo'y hindi totoo

Isip ko'y litong lito

Dito sa mundong walang sinasanto

Isang araw tila isang taong pagkahimbing

nabubuhay na lamang sa mundong madilim

Tibok ng puso'y unti unting tumitigil

Kakayanin pa ba ang buhay na nasisiil?

Sa likod ng masayang ngiti ay isang batang nagtitimpi

nagtitiis at nag iisip, habang buhay mananaginip

Umiiyak, sumisigaw, nag-aasam ng alapaap

Gustong makatakas sa katauhang walang pangarap.

Anino ni Hudas

dadalhin kita sa iyong kaibuturan

sabay tayong tatalon sa apoy ng kasamaan

sa loob ng usok, maabot ang langit

patungo sa lugar kung saan walang mali.

hoy! halika rito.

Ako ang iyong katapusan

dito ang huling hantungan

hoy! halika rito.

sumama ka sa akin at sabay tayong mamamatay

kumapit ka sa aking kamay

at tayo'y maglalakbay

gamit ang pakpak ni hudas,

lilipad tayo sa kawalan.

Huwag matakot sa aking gagawin

ako ang kalayaang di mo makakamit

mawala ka man sa mundo natin

kasiyahan naman ang sasaloobin.

kaligayahan mo'y hindi ipagkakait

buhay mo lamang ang tanging kapalit.

Speak FREE. Shout LOUD. Sing PROUD. If anyone hates it, turn up the volume!

Music is my soul.

Music plays a big role in my life. I grew up in a family that loves singing. My earliest memory of myself singing was when I was just a little boy (maybe around 3 or 4 years old) singing “the greatest love of all”. I remember hearing my sister practicing the song for a competition. She sang it repeatedly that I was able to memorize few lines.

I also love to dance. Tapping your feet, swaying your arms and bobbing your head to the beat of the music. I am not a great dancer,  but when an upbeat music plays and gets me in the mood, I don’t care if I look like an idiot dancing like a madman. 

Don’t you just love it when the music gets you in the right mood?

I have always been in love with music. Be it rock, pop, punk, jazz, alternative, or whatever it is that people listen to; it just completes my day.

I would even go as far as saying I wouldn’t survive in a world without music. Can you imagine that? A world without music? A world with no sounds to soothe your soul? I CAN’T. I WON’T.

It fascinates me that in almost anything we do and however we feel, there’s always that one song that means almost exactly as that moment in time. Happy, sad, angry, in love.... whatever it is, i'm sure you'll find the perfect song for you.

There was always music playing on all of my greatest and worst moments of my life….

“One last cry, before I leave it all behind I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time Stop living a lie I guess I’m down to my last cry” One Last Cry by Brian Mcknight

-high school prom. Last dance with my ex.

“Ang awit ng kabataan, ang awit ng panahon. Hanggang sa kinabukasan awitin natin ngayon.”Awit ng Kabataan by Rivermaya

 

-Pulp 04. Went to an awesome concert then Bamboo started singing one of my favorite songs. I ran towards the stage and joined the mosh pit.

“When you are with me, I’m free, I’m careless I believe. Above all the others we’ll fly. This brings tears to my eyes My Sacrifice.” My Sacrifice by Creed

-Central Colleges of the Philippines. Pop-Rock-Altenative. First battle of the bands. I was 4^th year high school. The electricity went off after our first song and everybody went “wooooohhhh!!!!”

“It's alright, I'm okay I think I can explain. I'm relieved I'm relaxed I'll get over it, yeah” I Think God can explain by Splender

-ok. I change “god” to “I”. That’s just me. But that’s another blog. Hehe.  Nov 10, 2010. I thought I’m gonna lose something very important to me.

“Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo…” HANDSDOWN by Dashboard Confessional

-Nov 21 2010. This song was playing in my head. I was having one of the best days of my life. There wasn’t any occasion. I was just happy. I hope it will continue play in my head for a loooooonnnnng time.

I can go on for hours. I can list every song that reminds me of something. It will never end.

My life is like a big playlist. Every day is a mix of genres and beats. I would never run out of songs to listen to. I would never live a day without music. Every day is a song for me.  Every step I make is a note that completes my song. And even when I die, people will still listen to the music that my life made.

This is what music is for me. This is my tribute to music. Maybe it’s time to do yours.

KING of all DOUBTS

There it goes again. That heavy feeling in your chest when you don't feel any desire to speak or move. All you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting. You attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try you can't seem to connect to anyone or anything.

Maybe it will change by the next few hours... just maybe... i don't know... call it depression, call it "topak"... I just can't seem to get my mind on the right track today.

Did something change? did i lose something?... i just get that feeling that something awful is gonna happen.

drowning in the sea of uncertainty, i reached out my hand... i held on to my last breath, but no one was there to save me...



someone please save me....

Laugh. Cry. Love. Be Loud. Just live your life. Living life as it should be.

LAUGH.



"it only takes the simplest of reasons for anyone to laugh"


it could be for the oddest reason… it can be simple, complicated, stupid or just plain mockery... go ahead and laugh. it'll make you feel good.

We laugh for whatever reason that makes us feel good. We share laughs with our friends and the people dear to us. It's probably the most meaningful if we get to laugh with the people important to us.

I believe that laughter is the best medicine. It can make things a little bit better whenever I’m down. I even laugh when I’m crying, which makes people think I’m a whole another level of weird. I laugh when I’m crying because it makes me stop the tears. Don’t get me wrong, I do not deprive myself of the tears that want to overflow in my eyes… It’s just the way I am.

L-O-L. Laugh out loud.

So Laugh... Make fun of yourself or the people around you. Sometimes, it takes one person to laugh for other people to. You just have to think that in some ways, you’re making their day a little bit better.







CRY.



Let the tears flow. Nothing wrong with crying. Everyone deserves a moment to cry and release all the sad emotions they feel even for a short amount of time.

I used to cry a lot. I was called a “cry-baby” when I was young… I cried for the simplest of reasons.. i cried when I got bruises and scrapes. I cried when someone took my basketball when I was playing. I cried when I didn’t get the toy I wanted for Christmas. I cried when I didn’t want to dance in front of an audience. I cried when I got teased. And I got teased more when I cried. Then I cried harder. I cried when I got dumped. I cried when I dumped an "ex love”. I cried for many more reasons. Basically, I cried a lot for the past 23 years.

Looking back in all of these… I don’t regret crying at all. Not even once. I can think of many times when I think I shouldn’t have cried but I still did, and I won’t change it even if I could.

It made me a better person. It made me stronger. It made me tougher in all sense.

I still shed tears every now and then. But lately, for deeper reasons.. I now can count reasons why I cry. Well, I could count how many people that can make me cry. Now, I cry because of the people who are important to me. I cry because I care for them. I cry because I wouldn’t want to lose them. I cry because sometimes, it’s the only thing I could do.

Don’t be afraid to cry. It’s normal and it’s a healthy act.

Go ahead and cry… because you’re HUMAN.




LOVE.



Love is the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. In philosophical context, love is a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection. In religious context, love is not just a virtue, but the basis for all being (thank you Wikipedia!!)

I never liked defining the term love. You know those high school autobiographies… the ones friends want you to answer… those little annoying books girls normally have… They ask their guy friends and girl friends to answer just to know them more without actually having any conversations…. I mean why not just ask me personally. I never answered the question “what is love?” Not because it’s too cheesy or corny for me… it’s because I can’t find the words to define it.

I just know it. I just feel it.

I’ve been through many relationships. Most of them never lasted long. It’s not that I didn’t love them. I just felt like it wasn’t the right fit. The good thing is most of my “exes” are still my friends.

Love isn’t just about being in a relationship with the one person who is for the moment means so much to you… close to calling them your “life”. Love is a relative term. Loving for me is the same as caring for the people important to me. Making them happy and giving them everything I can, even if I know I cannot give them everything they need. And you can love not just one person at a time. You can love as many people as you want... as long as you’re sincere about it.

And I will never be afraid to get hurt when I love. it’s a part of it. I have always told myself that in order for a person to know love, one has to know what it feels like to get hurt.

Forget the whole “it’s better to have loved and lost than to never to have loved at all.” You will never lose love. It will always be there. It may not be the same as before, but it is still and forever will be a part of you.

I have loved. I’m in love. And I will always love.

It doesn’t matter who or what the person is. I just know that I’m in love. And that’s good enough for me.





BE LOUD.



I’ll make this short.

Be LOUD be PROUD but be HUMBLE.

Make a statement. Let yourself be HEARD.

Make people LISTEN. SPEAK your MIND.

Because you matter. :)





JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE.

There is no secret to a good life. If there is, maybe it’s “Stop looking for the f*cking secret to a good life!”
We all suffer from depression… We all get to have the happiest day in our lives… We all get to experience the ultimate high and low. But you’ll never notice those things if you’re too busy looking for something that isn’t there.

Remove the term “perfect” from your vocabulary. People strive for perfection but we’ll never get it. That’s just how it is. We will never be able to fully satisfy ourselves. We’ll always find something better than what we have now. All we can do is to live life and enjoy the ride.


“I am who I choose to be.”

YOU are the only one that can make yourself do the things you do. You may consider what the people around you tells you to… but in the end... it’s your decision… it’s your life. Just be sure that you’re prepared for any consequences that may result to your actions.

Have fun! Make mistakes! Make yourself feel alive.

We only have one life to live. Give it all the best that you can.








Laugh. Cry. Love. Be Loud. Just live your life.


Living life as it should be.


I’m not saying this is the only way to live. I will not tell anyone how to live their lives. This is just but a guideline for me. No one has to be told what to do and how to do it.

This is my way. This is how I am. This is me.



And now you have to find yours…. :)

2012

so this is what it feels like when your world falls apart.

L-O-L.


crumbled to pieces. broken.



but then i survived the end of the world.

now everything around me is new. everyone around me feels like a stranger. hehe

now i dont know what to do... every plan i have now seems impossible.

even if i said im gonna do it, parang sobrang hirap...

i do hope i'll be able to do what i want in life.


man.... im gonna be ok... i think... i hope.hahahaha


lol to my lack of originality sa title. hahah. 2012. what the fuck am i thinking.

inyerocks

inyerocks.

inye + rocks

"inye"
inye: Definition, synonyms


1. came from the word "renier", "nier", "inier/ inyer" to what is now known as "inye"

      -The boy's name Renier \r(e)-nier\ is a variant of Raynor (Old German), and the meaning of Renier is "deciding warrior".
2.  a weird entity that came to life for about 23 years as of nov 2010.

3.  a graphic artist, programmer, music enthusiast

4.  a friend.

5.  an entity believed to be capable of going through almost any form of hazard (though yet to be proven)




"rocks"
rocks: Definition, synonyms


n.

1. Relatively hard, naturally formed mineral or petrified matter; stone.
2. 1. A relatively small piece or fragment of such material.
   2. A relatively large body of such material, as a cliff or peak.
3. A naturally formed aggregate of mineral matter constituting a significant part of the earth's crust.
4. One that is similar to or suggestive of a mass of stone in stability, firmness, or dependability: The family has been his rock during this difficult time.
5. Rocks Slang. Money.
6. Slang. A large gem, especially a diamond.
7. Slang. Crack cocaine.

    8.    AWESOME
    9.    strong, hard, almost unbreakable




inyerocks: Definition, sysnonyms



1.   once was called a curse. the curse being that inyerocks can cause severe damage to a relationship it may come in contact with (lol. awesome)

2.   by definition of its origin, it may be a weird entity capable of surviving through a great amoung or torture. something strong and maybe even unbreakable.
         
       caution: any form of strong object, if smashed hard and repeatedly may cause to break.



lol.... probably one of my crappy posts ever.